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11

May

Long Tall Lust Part 1

I can’t remember the last time I wanted to fuck a man so badly. There was no romance to my fantasy. I just wanted Ethan to drag me into the bathroom at the reception hall, kiss me so hard I couldn’t breathe and run those delightfully long fingers under my dress before jamming his fingers into my pussy. I wanted him to rub my clit with his thumb while I bit his shoulder to muffle my screams as I came.

I knew from his slow, patient demeanor and that devilish twinkle in his eye that he was the sort to bring a woman slowly, because the squirming gave him just as much pleasure as the ride.

He would get out of his lucky lady every shiver, mewl and orgasm he could before finally bring that wonderful, oversize cock to her body. Christ and Fate and Vegan Jebus, I wanted him to have exactly that way with me.

 The catch, of course, is that nothing between us could ever be casual. I don’t do one-nighters no matter how much a man makes my clit twitch. Ethan’s slow deliberation meant evaluation of heart and mind – as well as body. We might not aim for forever, but the time we had would mean more than just a one-off fuck. We also shared too many people in common to be open about any affair we might have. While he and I were on the same page about sex and morality, we were surrounded by convention and no matter who consented to what in private, the people we loved expected to do right as they defined it, not as we did. My husband was fine with erotic dalliance in theory - but I’d never tested it. And my best friend, Ethan’s sister-to-be, was of a very traditional mind when it came to me defiling future family members.

30

Mar

Yes, I have a hypnofetish. But I will be posting some straight sex porn here, too.

Yes, I have a hypnofetish. But I will be posting some straight sex porn here, too.

25

Mar

Boss - a final vignette

Boss heard the rustle at the door that told him Beth arrived. While the full on brain-fuck left her happy with her job, he could still see she was pissed that he ordered her presence on a Saturday. Still, she followed his commands and showed up wearing the short-sleeved Oxford blouse and pencil skirt he requested. Presumably she followed instructions on the underwear, as well.

Boss allowed Beth’s anger; her triggers went twelve times deeper when she felt conscious resistance and anger. The set of triggers he wanted to test were a little treat he designed for himself; perhaps a bit tame by the standards of some, but the potential was so gratifying to him he had to stop himself from stroking off at the thought of it, not to mention Beth’s slack face as she stared at the metronome repeating his new commands.

“Good morning, Boss,” she said, smiling through clenched teeth.

Boss smiled. “Good morning, Bethy.” She glared. Conscious Beth still fucking hated the patronizing nickname, but conscious Beth also loved her work.

Boss took her purse and coat out of her hands. “I’ll take care of those. You just stand there a minute.”

Beth stood as requested. Boss took a little extra time putting her coat and purse in a drawer in his office - he needed her ID to find a suitable apartment for her nearby - and dawdled just long enough that Beth would get impatient.

Beth did. She started to put her foot forward, to look for Boss, and found she couldn’t move.

“What the hell?” at least she could speak.

Boss heard the protest, and that was his cue. “Something wrong Bethy?”

She gave him a panicked look. “I can’t move!”

“Hm, that’s strange,” he said, stopping in front of her. He slide his hands down to cover her breasts. “Can you feel that?”

“Yes I can feel that, and what the hell are you doing?”

Boss began deftly unbuttoning her blouse. “You may move your arms enough to take off the blouse, and then resume their position.”

Beth found her arms, seemingly against her will, take the blouse off the rest of the way. She realized she forgot her bra, and now stood half naked and frozen in front of her boss. This must be some messed up dream from working too much.

Boss took in her breasts, enjoying their smooth look and their lovely hang. He then placed his hands over them. Beth’s eyes widened. “What the hell?” she said, unable to move, not understanding what was happening.

“Look in my eyes, Beth,” Boss commanded.

Beth looked, unable to stop herself. As she did, Boss moved his hands deftly over her nipples and the sudden, violent arousal took Beth down, all the way down until she was the hypnotized horny slave, mindlessly hot for her Master. A moan escaped her lips as she remained frozen, now so happy that Master controlled her body.

Boss leaned in, still stroking her breasts, hitting every trigger he had programmed into her he possibly could. He leaned down and whispered in her ear, “Deeper Bethy, deeper,” and down she went, murmuring “Yessss master,” as her will and consciousness glazed completely away.

“Very good Bethy,” he said, and she shivered, the nickname sending orgasmic shivers through her body. He slid a hand up her skirt, and fingered her gently, a light touch that made her want to squirm if he would allow it.

Boss found she wore no panties either, and that he had not commanded. It looked like his Bethy was going to have a great future at HypnoTech.

23

Mar

Boss part 2

Boss eventually let Beth go home, calling her awake after informing her that she absolutely loved her new job and saw a permanent career in it.  She would gush about it to anyone who asked, but be simply …sleepy, so sleepy as soon as she got home that she would need to go to bed and dream the script he planted in her, the script where she dreamed about crawling on her knees toward him all night and it got her so hot, so horny. Too sleepy to really give anyone coherent details about the job, which she were left soft and foggy in her mind until he could get her away from a network that would get suspicious about the new, submissive Beth. He would turn her loose on the population again once the programming was complete, of course, but that would be at least six months.

He took care to implant the idea that Beth must move closer to work, it was simply less stressful as she should expect to work (fuck) late often.

Consciously, Beth still retained her slight dislike of him, and Boss planned to capitalize on that. When she came in at 8 am sharp the next morning, wearing a straight skirt, heels and jacket he was pleased; he did need her to do some actual work and found that making her think of herself as a slut but dress otherwise created a lovely cognitive dissonance that he could easily exploit.

“Good morning Beth, did you sleep well last night?”

She looked at him, a touch glassy already, but with a still-slight hint of contempt. “Er, yes - I guess I need some coffee.”

“Of course,” he said. “But first we need to get you to focus.”

Her face slacked, and Boss pulled out his favorite gold pocket watch. “Yes, focus Beth, completely focus. Focus for Master. Do you remember who your master is?”

“Yes..” she slurred, her body slumping as she stood, staring at the watch while Boss hit her every trigger. “You are my Master.” He could see her make a slight face. Good.

“Does this bother you, Beth?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

“Don’t like Master.”

“Focus on the watch and obey, Beth.” He smirked. He loved adding the next suggestion. “The more you resist, the more you obey. Your resistance makes you obey. When you resist, your only choice is to obey. Obey. Horny. Obey. Resist, and obey.”

He could see the wheels turning as Beth’s own attempt at fighting him took her down into deep submission.

“What do you do for Master?”

“Obey.”

“Very good. Obey. Obey. Repeat after me, I obey Master.”

“I obey Master.”

“Keep repeating it until I tell you to stop. Stand there, and keep repeating it. Go deeper, every repetition gets you horny, every repetition takes you deep.”

He pocketed the watch, and left Beth standing in the middle of the reception area, chanting “I obey Master.” Sheila had come in, and was staring at Beth glassy-eyed, getting hot just watching her.

Unfortunately, Boss actually needed Sheila to work today. “Focus, Sheila,” he whispered in her ear. “You are very focused on recruiting today. Master wants you to recruit, and he will play with you later.” Sheila nodded, and accepted the command to begin poring over resumes and psych profiles. In Sheila’s mind, Beth’s chanting was no different than the buzz of a radio.

He placed his hand on Beth’s shoulders and whispered, “You may stop chanting now. Go into the conference and sit down. When you sit down, repeat “I obey master, what master tells me is true. Obeying master makes me horny, I need to fuck master. You must sit and chant, getting hornier and hornier, but you may not move until I allow it.”

Beth went into the room and sat primly, while she vocalized the words he put in her mind. He could see her arousal building. After a few moments, he came in, and said, “Awake, no memory.”

Beth blinked, and looked at him. “Oh, good morning, are we getting to our W-2s today?”

He pulled out the pocket watch and dangled it in front of her; Beth’s eyes glazed even before he said “Focus, obey, deeper and deeper. You are to listen to me with full attention. Obey. You enjoy being hypnotized by me. You want to be hypnotized daily. I am your master, and you are my slave. You want to fuck your master. You need to fuck your master. Obey. Horny. Obey. Horny. Obey.”

Beth’s eyes locked on the watch as her helpless mind drank Boss’s commands. She had to obey, she was too horny, to resist was to obey obey horny aroused helpless submissive must fuck her master because Master told her she wanted to fuck Master. Master continued to pound her helpless brain: “The more you resist the more you obey. Fighting my commands causes you to surrender. You become even more submissive, completely submissive, so in need of my cock and command.”

“The more I resist, the more I obey,” Beth heard herself repeating. Her mind drifted. Horny. Clothes, off, very good, she slide her hands over her body as Master took her thoughts and gave her helpless, submissive, aroused feelings about his command - and at last he blessedly ordered her to fuck him, fuck him like a submissive little slut, please her master must because she was so horny and fucking master would make her a helpless submissive nympho, must obey her master.

Reality blurred completely, and she was soon riding Master’s cock and chanting “Obey Master, Master’s cock hypnotizes me, Master hypnotizes me, Master’s hands hypnotize me, obey, horny, obey,” as Master played with her tits and planted in her new ways to control her mind and body.

22

Mar

Boss

Boss watched from his office window as the newest recruit came in: a fresh-faced Ivy Leaguer, magna cum laude, with red hair and a pert body. Boss stroked his hardening cock through his pants and glanced at her psych profile. It seemed like a waste to turn her into what she would become, but the imaginative ones were always the best for this kind of hypnotic training. She would be able to do her job without a thought in her head unless Boss put one in it. Besides, why hire a trained monkey when you can get yourself a deeply trained and conditioned sex slave?

 The report indicated that there was already lots of progress made before Beth’s first day. Her considerable imagination combined nicely with her sense of entitlement: she didn’t even recognize the low-level hypnosis his assistant initiated with her, and she had no idea that when she left her interview, she also left with her brain riddled with post-hypnotic triggers, including a trigger that had her calling in every single day for reinforcement. She even still thought of herself as reasonably assertive, despite her decreasing inability to ignore ringing phones or to say no to low-level upsells while shopping.

Boss’s phone rang, and his trusty assistant came on the line. “Good morning Mas – Boss,” she corrected quickly. “The new girl is here.”

 “Thank you Sheila. You sound like a happy girl today. Your tits are very happy,” he said. She’d done an excellent job on the training and reinforcement with Beth, she deserved to spend a day playing mindlessly with her tits. Besides, even before he hypnotized her into a workplace sex toy Sheila proved herself loyal, inventive and industrious – so industrious that she unwittingly did all the research that resulted in making herself his favorite slave and recruiter. Boss made a note to ask Sheila if she’d like a little work done on her body; he still found her sexy, but Sheila had some insecurities about the hang of her breasts he could not hypnotize out of her.

 Boss came out of his office to greet the redhead. “Welcome,” he said, distracting Beth from the way Sheila’s mouth was rounding into an aroused and helpless O. He needed to distract Beth before Sheila’s hands actually made their way to her breasts. He placed his hand on the small of Beth’s back, steering her away from the sight of his self-pleasuring entranced assistant. “The conference room is right this way,” he said. “We’ll just have you watch a few videos and get oriented.”

 Beth stepped away from his hand and ahead of him to the conference room. At the door she paused and met his eyes. “Look, I don’t want to get off on the wrong foot, but I’m not really a touchy-feely person. I’d appreciate it if you respected my boundaries.”

 Boss suppressed a grin. More colleges were sending young women through assertiveness training, and in most companies, it probably worked. Here, he thought if it as famous and frequent last words. He stepped back, hands in the air. “Absolutely. Hands off lady.”

Beth gave a brief smile and nod of appreciation; he could tell she felt a touch smug for making her lines clear. Boss gestured to the TV and DVD set up on the end of the conference table. “It’s ready to go, just push play. I have a staff meeting so I’ll be back in a few hours to check on you.”

 She looked across the empty table. She saw not so much as a W-2 to fill out. “Is there a pen and paper so I can take notes?”

“We just want you to focus on the video for now,” Boss said, emphasizing the word focus. Beth’s face slacked slightly at the word. “We’ll have you out for a paperwork orgy afterward. You just focus on the work at hand.”

Shaking the cobwebs that crept up - Jeez, I guess I went to sleep too late last night, what was with that marathon masturbation session? - Beth grimaced, and tried to fake a smile. She sent up a silent prayer that she need not spend too much time working with this guy.

 Boss shut the door, leaving her alone with the DVD remote. She looked around the room – there was a panel of mirrors on one side, a nice way to avoid any staff having a claustrophobic meltdown. Other than that, there was nothing but the table, chairs, a conference phone hookup and the TV/DVD player – and the remote in her hand. Beth pushed play.

The video was the standard stuff: OSHA regulations, dress codes, absence policies and health benefits. The video maker used a lot of flashy graphics; a few times the lights made her head snap back as though someone had waved smelling salts beneath her nose. Beth checked her watch – four hours had passed? “How long will this damn thing go on?” she muttered, wondering if she should pause for lunch. Another flash of light hit her eyes, then another. It seemed like the DVD had some second track she couldn’t make out, and yet another flash in her eyes made her eyelids flutter. She’d close them, just for a minute – long enough to prevent a migraine.

Boss smirked from the other side of the one-way glass. Beth went down right on schedule. The pre-conditioning Sheila did during Beth’s job interview had her responding to one post-hypnotic trigger after another, and she had no idea how deep her conditioning already went. Boss adjusted his fly, thinking about slamming into Beth’s dripping, helplessly willing pussy.

A murmur in the soundtrack prompted Beth to open her eyes, and when she looked on the screen, a green spiral swirled on the screen. She stared blankly, critical thought sliding away into what Beth thought was mere boredom. Now, Boss thought, the training begins.

A gentle female voice – Sheila’s – began speaking firmly. “Beth, pay attention. Beth, please focus. FOCUS. Beth, it’s very important you focus on the screen. Beth, the most important thing right now is that you focus on the screen. The screen is the most important thing in the world in this moment. Focus on every word. Focus on every sound.”

 Beth leaned forward, slumping slightly but obeying. Yes, yes, pay attention. She wanted to do well in this job. If she did well in this job, she could go on to a more prestigious job. She might suck the boss’s cock as that would be prestigious. Where did that come from? It wasn’t important, what mattered more than anything was the screen and the voice, the voice telling her familiar things that made her feel so relaxed, relaxed, relaxed and aroused.

Pay attention, the voice urged. If you pay attention, you won’t need to think about your job. If you pay attention you won’t need to think Beth, don’t think Beth, Beth, no thinking. Just listen, no thought. No thoughts. No thoughts allowed without permission.

Beth drank it in, feeling light headed and relaxed, a slight tingle rising in her pussy. Soon all her attention focused on that tingle, and wouldn’t stop. The nice voice was telling her how horny she was, how very horny, Beth is so horny and clothing just felt wrong, it needed to come off so she could run her hands over her sensitive skin. Off, clothing off. Clothing must come off. Her first day on the job, and she should put in extra effort take it all off – it was important in her new job to respond, not to think, no thinking only responding and the voice began counting, so urgent, ten, her shirt came off, deeper and hornier, two her skirt and God the tingle that went through her, three and she stepped out of her shoes, by eight she was unfastening her bra and her breasts felt so sensitive more sensitive than ever before – and why was that lately? Ten Beth was naked and feeling so gratified at a job well done. She stared at the screen, the all-important screen that informed her, advised her, praised her, made her so thoughtlessly horny. Horny. The screen said no thinking, but she was allowed to feel. Beth felt horny.

On the other side of the glass, Boss unzipped his fly. Here the fun began. “Say hello to the rest of your life,” he said, watching her nude form standing up, gazing blankly into the screen, nipples hard and running her hands over her shaking and aroused body.

Beth’s breasts had never felt so good; she had no idea that her pre-work talks with Sheila instilled an increased erotic sensitivity in them that would make it easier for Boss to control her. She pinched and tweaked while her brain told her that by teasing her breasts she also teased her clit. Beth was horny. Beth was always horny. Work made Beth horny. The way Beth felt about work was horny, aroused, ready to fuck. Beth was a slut. Her hands drited down to her clit, and the voice on the monitor changed from Sheila’s gentle command to a man’s baritone. The voice allowed her to sit down, allowed her to spread her legs and stroke her clit. The voice increased her pleasure by 20 times, by 50 times, and just as she was on the edge of cumming it dialed her back to a 5, and then counted up again over and over, just taking her back as she was about to cum.

Beth heard moaning, and in a distant way recognized her own voice begging for release, begging for the voice to release her, she would do anything, she would be anything, just let her cum because she felt horny, the voice allowed her to be horny.

Then the man’s voice said yes! She could cum, as long as she said the magic words, as long as she believed the magic words, as long as the magic words became her. Yes, the magic words. 20, 50, 1000, so horny and needing to cum. The green circles had a red word in the center, so simple, so brilliant. Obey.

Say you obey, said the voice. Say you will always obey, and you can cum. Say you will obey and be an unthinking and horny slut, and you can cum.

A voice in the back of Beth’s head said no obey. Bad thinks. But that was thinking, and Beth wasn’t allowed to think. The arousal count went higher, the voice holding her back from orgasm until she obeyed. 20, 30, 500, 1000, 2000 god all she was was her need to cum, needed to cum, can’t cum until she obeys. Obey would make her cum. Obey. Obey. So helplessly aroused, and at last the arousal over took her.

“I obey,” came out of Beth’s mouth, an involuntary response from her softened brain, and she came. She came hard, and began to chant, “I obey,” and she would come. “I obey,” and she came again. It became a chant, self-reinforcing. “I obey,” cum. Obey, cum. Obey, cum. Obey, cum. Each orgasm left her mind a little more open, a little more blank, so much more submissive and willing to be controlled.

Beth at last stopped, her body exhausted and her mind helplessly open. She lay, naked, legs spread open over the office chair. Boss let himself into the room through a sliding panel. His low voice said firmly, “Obey, Beth.” Another orgasm shot through her, making her moan even louder at her complete absence of control.

Quivering and blank, Boss pressed on with training his new employee. “Yes Beth, you love to obey.” He paused as another shudder ran through her. “Do you know why you love to obey?”

Shudder. “No…”

“No what?”

“No Boss.”

“Beth, that’s not my name. My name to you is Master. It is the only name you have for me. You need to call me Master. You must obey Master. Saying yes master gets your horny. Repeat after me: I must obey Master.”

Another orgasm. “Must obey Master.”

“Say it again.”

“Must obey master.”

“Again.”

Beth eventually began to chant it, and then Boss allowed her to stop.

“Beth, I’m giving you a little gift: your very own thought. Master is letting you have your own thought, one of your very own, one you can keep forever. You think that you must obey master. Tell me what you think, Beth.”

“Must obey master.”

“Tell me what you think until I tell you to stop thinking.”

“Must obey master, must obey master, must obey master…”

“Very good Beth. That’s the only thought you need to have today. Sleep now, and the only thing you may think while you sleep is that you must obey your master. Sleep.”

“Yes Master,” and with that, Beth slept, floating on swirling colors and the single thought of obedience.

Warning: not exactly feminist porn coming up

Just a heads up that a few of my installments are darkside, erotic hypnosis stuff.

15

Mar

In the conservatory

Dizzy-drunk

with fresh oxygen

we kiss,

clean, sweet, wintergreen

While snow swirls

beyond the glass.

14

Mar

Where she is among the flowers of women

They speak of women as flowers -

the blossom falls, fertility gone, and that is all.

But I am a succulent (sexy)

rich with curves

self-nourishing

expanding ever outward.

As I reach within myself

I offer luxury

in the poorest conditions

and I can draw on my moisture,

stay wet

and generous and rich

while these delicate petals give up their seed

and fade into dried, forgotten husks.

Her incantation

In love with two men and embracing them both, this is her song and spell:

Help me gently

to break free from what binds me-

Give full release

to my passion,

my creativity

my love -

that ALL of it

maybe received

by all I wish

to receive it.

13

Mar

Southern Star

To 8:

I am the one that wakes you

offering up coffee

and massaging your limbs -

it has been terrible for you,

naked, alone,

hiding beneath the ground

healing all the breaks of loss.

I can’t replace two women.

I can’t replace one.

When you let me see

into your life,

and I see how still-bound you are

My heart desires to shine my light into you

with such force

that all dark and pain burns away.

I want to be your shining light;

a southern star

that leads you away from the cold.

All this loss

and you left alone

and tangled in it.

The girl, the love,

the heartbreak;

your mother, the death,

your silence;

initiate, beloved.

Come into this world,

enter this doorway you see me standing in, hand extended.

I will lead you

if you will be led.

I will love you

if you will be loved.

I will heal you

if you will be healed.

I will release you

if you will be released.